Over the last month of taking on a full time position as a case coordinator where I coach people into work and life transitions all day long up to 12 people a day I’ve come to realize two very important things about human beings
First, we live in a world that is filled with anxiety and depression- people unsatsified with life in so many different ways from relationship to their employment to their own self. People are continuously taking out their feelings of inadequacy not only on themselves; destroying relationships with the world around them; building up anger based out of sadness and fear.
Secondly, no person I have never met has a fear of failure, people have a fear of success. What I’m come to realize at my young age (with a ton of indifferent and adverse experiences) is that we are born into this world pure with a purpose to find purpose- to find happiness, wholeness through love and passion. And until one realizes that, one can not get healing or find a path toward fulfillness in life. We all do it, in different ways, the key is taking a little look at why.
Connecting to your anxieties/depression from a place of being dissatfied in life (as long as its not a chemical imbalance in which some simple medication can help) can either create some anxiety about the anxiety or if looks at in a place of standing tall and a place of that we have now the opportunity for wholeness, one foot in front of the other we can rebuild a new directive path for ourselves. It will require humility, fight, and faith.
While I was in Kenya last year I did workshop for the Red Cross of Nairobi. The workshop held 46 women between the ages of 18-64 and 3 men one of which was a respected pastor. I met with an energy that was not quite welcoming but not quite welcoming. Here they saw a young white woman coming in to tell them how they needed to live life. It took me about 20 mins to get those looming thoughts that I was there to tell them how to live rather than give them tools for a more fulfilling life. These people were from the biggest and hardest slum in Kenya and had far more life hardships and unfair circumstances that I could ever imagine. After an hour sharing with them about work life balance, about family, community, and spirit, find passion within their own worlds a beautiful energy developed.
At the end of two hours a woman stood up and spoke directly to me, in mixed Swahili and English telling me that all her life she thought God as she knew him was punishing her, that he had given her poverty, abuse, and many children as a punishment and for the first time every she had no fear and was ready to live with purpose on her new path; sharing that energy with her children so that they would grow to know different than see. Tears ran down my face.
The pastor stood and asked me if he could come to the front of the tent where the wind was blowing the dirt around in the warm air, he came up and blessed me… More tears of gratitude.
I learnt so many things that day and so many things as the days pass. Through my hardships, adverse challenges, deaths, and life in general I’ve had to conquer so many anxieties and roller coasters of emotion but learning to exam my life in a deeper more meaningful way has allows me to smile once Ive exited the tunnel and have faith when I’m in it.
Take a moment to look at you, develop you, explore your dreams, passions, and connect to your own purpose you might be surprised at what you find.. next week… I’m post some ways to connection and understand whats cards are being dealt and how to handle it
